We are trying to re-purpose.
We are trying to re-purpose our efforts. Although we aren't quite sure what that means.
We are trying to re-purpose our emotions. No, not re-purpose; re-direct. In this case we are trying to heal our wounds, and care for one another. We are trying to accept our new reality.
While we're dealing with our new reality, we're busy feeling a lot of emotions. Anger, despair, vulnerability. It's hard not to feel like a victim of circumstance. We feel sad. We cry. We hug. We stay quiet. We stay home.
It is hard. So hard. And it's something that no one else can understand. If you haven't been down the adoption road, you don't - or won't - get it.
Losing this adoption has been a lot like losing a pregnancy. Trust me on this - I have experience. While a miscarriage is physically painful, this adoption is painful in another way: it was the first time we've every truly been expectant parents.
The room was ready, the travel items bought, and the names chosen (1 for a boy, 1 for a girl). We were ready.
We've been ready. For a long time.
So now we need to re-purpose some other things.
We need to re-purpose some of the wonderful things we've bought.
We can't return them. The return time has long since passed. I'm not sure what we'll do with everything. We certainly can't afford to give it all away. We're waiting. Waiting for inspiration.
But there is something we need help with.
Some really great people donated some great things for the orphange. And we don't know what to do with them.
We would love to send it over, but we can't afford to just ship a heavy box to the other side of the world.
So, we could use some recommendations. Please.
What abour donating the items to a local transition house or women and children's homeless shelter. Just a thought.
ReplyDeleteI was thinking about the toques the other day. What about donating them to the hospital? Although they are a little big. Save them and dole them out as presents to friends? I know of a mutual friend that might be able to take 4. Donate them to a shelter?
ReplyDeleteSeriously, do what feels best. And if what feels best is keeping them around, then do that. If what feels best is getting them out of the house, get them out.
Perhaps get a hold of NS Community Services? They should know of people travelling to another country, maybe the items could be donated to an orphanage in China or Bulgaria? They may even be willing to store them until such a family is travelling. Agree with the above, you need to do what feels right.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever considered surrogacy?
ReplyDeleteA very costly endeavour, and one not to be taken lightly. Surrogacy can easily cost twice what this adoption would have.
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